She was in Birmingham and I was at, I was doing a TV show at the time. He said: 'When Isabelle was born, I stayed clean for a while, and then I relapsed again when she was about six months old. Speaking to Giovanna Fletcher on her Happy Mum Happy Baby podcast, he became emotional as he recalled hitting 'rock bottom'. Matt and Emma have three children - Isabelle, 13, Ace, 11, and Trixie, six. He opened up on how missing the milestone had been a 'turning point' in his addiction and motivated him to get better. I'm so ashamed of that, and I never want her to feel like that again.'Įarlier this year in an interview with Giovanna Fletcher on her Happy Mum Happy Baby podcast, Matt broke down as he revealed his battle with alcoholism caused him to miss his daughter's first crawl. I go: 'You feel that way that means that I am doing something, that's not in your head.' Because I was the mastermind at gaslighting, making her think she was crazy. 'When she notices something, I take it on board and listen, and I don't argue. I think the way I choose to do it is to be this guy, every day.

I never did that with Emma I don't think I ever can. Reflecting on how it damaged their relationship he says: ' is you make amends to people you've hurt. The documentary touches on how Matt's addiction affected Emma, who is a popular TV presenter and the mother of his three children.Įmma began keeping track of Matt's drinking and drug-taking by writing a diary, admitting she was scared that he would eventually take his life. In the morning, he'd find the note before she did and throw it away. Matt said he would leave notes for his wife, in case he didn't wake up. The star candidly admitted he would 'gaslight' Emma into thinking she was crazy during the height of his addiction struggles.Ĭover: Matt's interview features in the new edition of Radio Times Matt previously shared some of the harsh realities from his drug addiction battle and the toll it took on his relationship with his wife. 'It was hard for me to see how much that fear was still prevalent for her,' Willis says, before adding that the documentary made the couple 'realise that we still had some talking to do'. He said that making the documentary had made him realise the impact his addiction was having on Emma, who would often break down in tears over fears he could relapse. Matt has made a documentary Fighting Addiction with the BBC, due to be released on May 17. Later, on the 2017 tour, he 'was doing six grams (of cocaine) on my own every day and not coming home until three in the morning' - a month after he started taking the drug again. In his early 20s the singer said couldn't get to lunchtime without drugs or alcohol. The star has struggled to stay sober since being launched to fame in Busted when he was just 19 (Pictured with bandmates Charlie Simpson and James Bourne in 2004)

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